In the beginning, when I read about the success of others it gave me hope for my work. The more success stories I read, the less I believe I will see a small bit of joy. This contest is really a “Butch Cassidy” moment, we remember the part at the end when they come charging out. That is how I feel now, 15 months ago I got forced out of a contest winning position, the people above me got asked for work and I was left begging favours for nickels and dimes.
The other version is the equally famous ending to “White Heat” with Jimmy Cagney shouting “Look Ma, top of the world!” If I go out now after two months of good sales, I can part with a contented heart, knowing I gave it a go.